something new

I feel like nothing in my life is making me happy like usually I immerse myself into my friends and the whole party scene. But I can feel people getting tired of me always being around. I joke and kid around but most of the time is because I hate being with myself you know what it is that sitting in a room for more than 4hrs alone causes anxiety and stress thats not normal. I feel like my entire life is a joke I sit everyday and think what's my next move should I even have one...