Guilt

I cant help but feel guilty. I was raised upon the moral that one was not suppose to party or listen to music up to 9 days after the death of a loved one. For some people (like me) this a way of grieving. Listening to music is something I do everyday, when I walk somewhere, get dressed, do work everything. I have felt really bad about me breaking this and I have had some harsh dreams I feel its my subconscious punishing me for the belief of a social oppressor.