I hate this...

So on wednesday my senior project advisor looked at my work and of course my work got completely messed up so now I have to delay my work. I am upset but you know what Inhale, exhale... wusaaaaaa....

So today I went to the gym which was a new thing for me because the only gym I know is a basketball court thats it thats my workout. So today I wanted to try something new and I did a bike workout it was alright I hate the gym atmosphere idk I'm very cautious when it comes to shit like that.

Anywho there's a party tonight and I really want to go I haven't gone to a real club or house party that isn't at school since New Years so yea looking forward to it. I'm in the middle of getting dressed so I'll hit ya back laters...

Back....

My blog is back on track thank god for me sending all my notes to myself before switching phones.

Japanese Cartoon

I just heard some new tracks from these dudes^^^^
Japanese Cartoon it's pretty dope.

Dude...

So I really want to say this to someone but idk. I'm still iffy on it comments please....

ummm I don't know whats wrong or if I did something wrong in some way. I don't know whats going on in your life but maybe I can help. I know I'm far but I'm a great listener and if its just that you don't want to speak to me then just let me know I won't hit you up anymore like your a cool dude and stuff but I feel like I hit you up mad times and you don't ever respond... so idk whats going on at all.

The Black Cloud

...has lifted and I got some weight of my shoulders...I feel much better... well kinda.

brought to my attention

life's been crazy lately I've seem to be busy doing nothing but I will update the last 14 days that have gone by hadn't even noticed thats CRAZY!

I will write the small notations I make everyday on my phone and expand on it so expect 14 new posts by tomorrow night....

Grind ON...yea right

I'm suppose to do so much work due this week but I have no motivation to do anything. So I see myself slacking again so I don't even know what I am gonna do.


Feeling: OVERWHELMED

Joy Ride Extravaganza

So the bestie let me drive her car...I was very surprised especially because she wasn't going to be in the car. The first ride was to the stop & shop which is not that far and a straight shot and I was going and coming back with people in the car so it's nothing. The second trip was different it was into a busier area and I was going with people but coming back alone. It's not that I don't know how to drive...I'm just scared to. That's why I have no licence or even a permit.

Nada

I haven't been doing nada all day last night was ok. I got in my feelings a little by small comments that were mad here and there but it's not the end of the world.

It seems like my friends aren't speaking it'll blow over in like a day it's not a big deal cuz the situation wasn't planned.

B-days and Vaginas

Happy Birthday to Kickzrruss and my boo Rupurt Star.
I wonder what they doing tonight...

I'm going to one of my close friend's show this weekend I heard it's a good show so that should be fun and then Cheesecake Factory YAY!!! It's always a plus.

Bum Day

That's what today was. Well at least it was for me. After doing nothing and staring at my aim all day I decided to wash clothes and clean my room. Later I'm going to sit and wait for the homies to get out of class and we watching America's Best Dance Crew only 4 groups left.

The weekend can bring like Fat Joe said "So Much More"

Happy B-Day!!!

Today is 3 people's B-day
lets go from young to old...
(pics will be inserted later)

Happy Birthday Sole_Prince he is such a cutie!!!
Happy Birthday My Niece Yari!!!
Happy Brithday Christina P.!!!

Photo project

So today my Photography professor showed us this cool photomerge project it was pretty dope but now we have to make one damn art is difficult at time but fuck it happens I LOVES IT THOUGH!!!!!

Stares are bad...

I realize I stare a lot. I hope people dont get the wrong idea.

lol o well fuck'em

So today...

I woke up and had so much work to do on my senior project idk

Question:
Why do I slack so much to then have a panic attack/breakdown later?
Whats wrong with me?

Fuck V-Day!!!

On some real shit FUCK VALENTINES DAY!!!

If it's in Febuaray it has the perfect day fuck Valentines day it's the reason so much shit is going on.
Like Mr.B he was suppose to come over never happened...
Ex was suppose to come never happened...
And this whole situation was also due to this gay ass holiday fuck aren't we as humans suppose to express emotion everyday damn we don't have national happy day or sad day so Fuck VDAY!!!

friday the thirteenth

ok so I talked to both

One of which I am upset at but there's nothing that can really change from that because as much as I want I can't a person. I got really upset and told them to not speak to me but it was because this person came at me so wrong. Like dude what the fuck are you mad about like fuck!!! anyways they act very selfishly and that fucking sucks because were blood but damn man there is only so much pride and image you can feed someone.

Me and the bestie is cool again...I fucked up though I let the moment get to me. I don't think it will be the same...

Extreme Rage

So in the last 3 days I've spoken to my crazy squad and my closest homies except the bestie and my cousin but today I shall speak to both I'm tired of waitingand my cousin shouldn't even be mad at me so why did I apologize to her like the fucking weakling I am.

I am tired of always apologizing but thats the first thing that spits out my mouth when I feel like I did something wrong which is a lot of the time or when I truely feel bad.

Today is make or break so I must speak to both today.

The damn waiting...

So me and the bestie haven't spoken yet but I'm hoping we talk soon because this is driving me crazy. Space is the key but I hate waiting games I always have....

She's not the only one that I have to speak to so the talking must begin soon...

if you want...

Your space. I understand and I'll keep it moving.