Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Years Eve!!!!
so i just wanna take a moment to remince the year...
Ahhhh.... Good Year *Closes that book opens new one titled 2009*
I don't regret anything but I hella learned. So much was said true colors shown and now theres a new year to continue on.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
The Last Couple Days....
Monday, December 29, 2008
Bromance / The City
I sit and watch T.V with my Bro (this is gonna be my new word for '09) Ebunny (who is in DC) and give our opinions back and forth about the show its pretty intense TV watching its a sport for us you guys are not ready.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Little Black Dress
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Christmas
...and I have no buns person either I retired him. Long story I don't want speak about
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I'm done
My sister is a dick she upset me tonight. She came out her face in front of everyone. She told everyone that I was a lesbian and that was why I only had female friends and didnt have any boyfriend. I got so upset. That was such a low blow its not true it just hurts that someone so close did that.
I deaded the dude that i was getting buns from he was a real asshole. So I am all alone again I wonder what the others are doing. *picks up phone*
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Since I've been home...
Im a pothead again...
Monday, December 22, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Happy Birthday!!!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
A very merry unbirthday christmas
:o[
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
weekend qtime
Saturday got wasted went to the club spent and lost about 80 bucks.
Sunday made my bestie upset (I made her drive to the city and she was busy but I love her she's the bestest! Seeing someone might have mad up for it lol idk I hope so)went to the dunkxchange didn't get a drink a 1st and bought some blue ultras .
I spent time with @ least 3 people out of like 8 that I really really care for(lets not confuse it with my other 2 list that consist of like 6 people put together.)
Monday, December 15, 2008
Weekend...
Saturday... I went to the city it was my friend's B-Day clubbing event got wasted felt weird but had a great time lost $50 cash. Rating: Alright
Sunday... I went to the DunkXChange with the Bestie she was pretty mad she had to come all the way to the city. after acouple mins it was back to normal. Shes the greatest :D so we went to the dxc it was kinda whack i had to do it for school so its whatever. Then we went to her fave spot to eat Chipotle aka Chippies lol since she had to do the long trip it was on me.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
I quit...
Thursday, December 11, 2008
horoscope
You should spend your time with friends and have fun with them...
these are my intentions this weekend starting tomorrow night
i'm suppose to go meet up with my e-homies for a b-day gathering
saturday: it's an old friends b-day and she wants to go to the club idk if im gonna have energy for all that now
sunday: it's the NYC DunkXChange which I will also be doing work/hanging out.
looks like a good weekend (i got this thinking positive thing going lets see if it works)
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
where do they get this from...
You know that your worries lead you nowhere. If you let other people share in your (material) riches, you'll be a happier person. You're no coward if you let time do your work for you.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
I'm the invisible person...
Monday, December 08, 2008
Always
so we decided to have conversation on aim because i was at work and so was she and i didn't want to have to beat it in my head all day.
The conversation just turned into the things that wasn't really needed on the situation
F-ing Great!!!
Try to find out if your environment accepts your intentions before you take action.
Edited the other site said this...
Your wonderful generosity is legendary, and it's going to come into play in a big way, today. But putting smiles on faces will make your day. Just be careful how you go about giving the gifts of your wisdom -- you need to make sure you're not making people believe that they need to do exactly what you tell them to do. Otherwise, your idea will seem less like help, and more like rules to obey.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Finally
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Left behind...
Friday, December 05, 2008
transportation
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Love horoscope
I needed to read this. I worry way to much about this kind of stuff.
My biggest fear is dying alone with no friends or family to even care that I am gone.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
True Theory Photoshoot
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
4-0 ...
Monday, December 01, 2008
A new week of hard work to come
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thankgiving...
I did do some dumb things though. I hit up my friends even though I was trying to hold back. Then I hit up this crush I had like 2 weeks ago that has faded since then and told him if he wanted to be my fuck buddy. I know what was I thinking the convo went like "Oh, I don't like you anymore but do you wanna be my fuck buddy? No one has to know." Thats where I'm leaving this conversation at (I don't even know how I'm gonna act towards him now). I work all day for the next 3 days so see you guys on Monday when I'm bored at work alone.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
old friendships die hard...
The point of this post is that tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I'm going to try something new I'm going to give my friends the most space possible because I know I'm always around them and this is time for them and their closest.
The title to this blog is due to a friendship that I just can't let go of. This person is manipulative and they seek attention or its done for the day. Now that I'm not around them I don't have to deal with them anymore but this person has changed a lot in the last 7 months. I reached out to them yesterday and they took it as being depressing. Now they were an good friend time to time and I could confide in them but now it's like "Who is this person? Do I even know you?" The worst part about it is that I still want to be their friend. How can this be when they have put a gap between me and some of the people that were the closest to me 5 months ago.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
What do you hate?
So right after I said a stupid comment my real one popped up. I started thinking what do I hate and the first thing that popped up was me. Right after me was lying especially bad lying. I gets me heated especially when it's about something dumb.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Maybe its me ...
Sunday, November 23, 2008
so i quit
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Photography
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Light Bulb
Monday, November 17, 2008
work school school work work work work
Sunday, November 16, 2008
weekend 12 since school started
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Weekend # 11 and counting
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
I was a part of history ...
Monday, November 03, 2008
Damn i should be kanye...lol
Friday, October 31, 2008
Halloween
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Finally
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Recap for the month of October...
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Mental Updating
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Work Pile-Up
Monday, October 06, 2008
Guilt
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Death in the family...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Italian
I want a new camera so I can be a real artistic photographer
Monday, September 29, 2008
uhhh Mondays...
I must admit I dont know how to act at times but some people don't realize how they act and don't care about it thats not me. Things eat me up inside and I feel hurt when I shouldn't but thats my personality I understand not everyone is like me but how can people be so cold?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
New Tattoo...
I went to get the words "REGRET NOTHING" on each of my ankles. So far I have "NOTHING" on my left ankle covering a small scar. I love the ideas I have had. This is only half of the tattoo so I have to go back. I think the sound of the needle bothers me too. So I dont know how long I'm considering to continue with tattoos as of now its 3 but I gotta go get the other half done sometime this week but I have about 2 tattoos left. I think I choose words because they are small but find the right placement is the worst thing ever idk where else I have one wrist left lol. I think justice on my other wrist but I doubt it lol.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Now They All Show Up! SMH!
Buffalo: We have a lot in common he's cute and has a future ahead of him (career wise not a job there is a difference.) Unsure if he wants the real thing or another fling I'm up for either.
The Kid: He is just that fun to flirt with and entertaining I'm not attracted to him in anyway but I can control him, he's chasing me.
The Ex: He pops up into the picture leaves a fingerprint and leaves. I don't think I will ever like him like I did before.
The Fling: Awww he started off good then changed up on me. He is OK looking his personality was aggressive and he wasn't scared to be honest and I was very honest with him the most I have ever been. We argue but the make-up is the best, the regular is the best so its good all around.
They all popped into the picture this weekend I just didn't even make any moves because right now I'm alone but I'm not in need these guys all try to use me in some way except for the kid he's one who doesn't careless.
As of right now only 2 are in the game. Buffalo I want long term with. The fling I wanna ride out till it lasts. The others are just floating opportunities.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Party time...
Thursday, September 25, 2008
wow...
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
All Over Again..
All my shows for Monday nights are back on and with them came all my anxiety and fucked up feelings. I feel so empty and unmotivated to do anything... I'm trying to get excited about stuff but it's not working. Last night I didn't sleep. I was awake from 11:30 am to 9:20 am. I was gonna stay up longer but saw no point so I just forced myself to sleep. I'm gonna try a diet and taking my meds again. I started already I hope I lose some weight maybe it'll help.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Line up...
Opinion: I think this is honest and who doesn't love honesty... or Travis McCoy...it's a win win situation.
My Monday Nights are back YAY!!! Growing up I always thought that families at some point are suppose to have at least one moment together but the more I look at my past this didn't really exist. Now I'm in college and I have an extra family. they are honest care and important to me. They provide a stability that I need they give me that at home and togetherness feeling that I yearned for as a kid and I love them for them...if that makes sense.
7am!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Best Place Ever?
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Random Drunkness
Friday, September 19, 2008
....
Waiting for your, call I’m sick, call I’m angry, call I’m desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember Butterfly,
Early Summer It’s playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What’s your fantasy?(What’s your, what’s your…)
I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I’m tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn’t anything you have)
I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn’t anything you have)
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Really
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
So Me..
Monday, September 15, 2008
Handicapped Ernie
Ernie, from sesame street is now a retired vet from The Poor Choice War. He is recovering. It was from a herbal complication that occurred in a tug of war battle. It was my fault I caused a situation because I thought it was funny. I didn't intend for it to rip but it was old. I deserved for it to happen for being a dick but I didn't expect that rage.
It hurt a little I didn't know how to feel I still don't I don't expect an apology or a replacement cuz it was my fault and I wouldn't want one. It was like the only thing I had ever won on my own, it was the last good time from dead friendships and it was the only thing that kept me company when everything goes wrong, it was the only dependable thing that was there unconditional.
I know no one else liked it so I was willing to dump it. I was currently just keep it until I could replace it with something that others could appreciate as well but now it only reminds me of an unsure time and the bad friendships I don't even want to look at it anymore.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
UGHHHH!!!!
Opinion: I love this song no one can just listen and not sing along...
I don't know everyone is kinda happy I guess except for me for no reason. I partied twice this weekend drank and everything but yet again still bummed. Since Friday, I have felt sad and all alone I know story of my life. My friends all party and we are all together but I'm always the one with a face, I can't explain it.
I'm always the one that's only seen as a friend never anything else. I party with them just to go. In reality I go to these parties and just act like a tag along, the supervisor or I'm just hugging the wall. I dance from time to time but that's with guys that are just doing me the favor or like my friends. I try to tell my friends at time but I don't even want to mention it anymore, because its just my own personal problem.
I spent most of the party last night looking for them. I was just sitting alone letting my thoughts consume me. I go looking for them with no luck on my way back to my crib I receive a call from this kid who likes my friend he knew I was looking for them he tells me they are back at the party in fact they never left. Once I walk back in they are partying like "O Hey!!!" I tell them I have been looking for them and all I get is an "O" I love how searching for two drunk girls at a party full of off campus I get an "O"
Thanks for reaffirming my theories on if I were invisible or dead probably a week would go by before anyone noticed I was gone....
I desperately hope I'm wrong....
Friday, September 12, 2008
Back.... Room Remodeled
Listening to: The Foo Fighters - Tired of you
Opinion: Dope song it was featured in I Think I Hate My Wife starring Chris Rock and Keri Washington. The movie was ok had like 2 or 3 funnys but other than that it was ok.
So people I have just remodeled my single so that 2 people can live here and have a large space let me just say this worked out great. I would post a picture but I lost the card reader for my memory card but I can plug my phone in but thats mad work.
Monday, July 07, 2008
Did You Know That Pringle Potato Chips Are NOT Potato Chips?
Did You Know That Pringle Potato Chips Are NOT Potato Chips?http://www.smallbizmentor.com/ 2008/ 07/ did_you_know_that_pringle_pota.html
Well, it's official - Pringles potato chips are not potato chips at all. Here's a riddle for you. What looks like a Pringles potato chip, tastes like a Pringles potato chip and is shown on the Pringles website which proclaims Fun information site from the maker of Pringles potato chips? If you're guess is a Pringles potato chip, you're wrong! Huh? The Tax Prof Blog reports that a London judge saved Pringles 17.5% in tax, ruling that what we call chips are not potato chips at all, but potato snacks. Procter & Gamble's lawyers claimed at a May hearing that Pringles don't look like a chip, don't feel like a chip, and don't taste like a chip, according to the judgment.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
Happy Bday USA!
Thursday, July 03, 2008
DUDE!!!
I've been think things through and I'm gonna be a more confident person. So what you guys think? I'm in a good mood.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
New Layout!!!!
Today I have realized that me and my friends should make a TV show i think i will start recording everything becasue just watching TV together is entertaining who knows it might even take us somewhere ... lol ... don't shit on my new hope.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
DR! DR! DR! DR! DR!
I saw a lot of shit i didnt want to see and I saw some actions that I shouldn't have seen. Some true sides showed once again why do i trust people knowing it's not gonna work for me. SMH @ myself I should have known better.
BTW what happened in DR, stays in DR.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Ridiculous Ink
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Vacation!!!
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Monday, May 05, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
Earth Day
Nothing to do today but think about what's going on around me. I have realized that I always feel like a tag along. I also feel like no one around me really trusts me like they trust me with stuff they don't really care about. I'm just an acquaintance that is around all the time. It really sucks!!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
Culture Shock
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Summer School here I come!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
Self Teaching
Sunday, April 13, 2008
SkateBoard Sunday!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Happy Birthday!!!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
Brand
Shopping
I'm a fat chick but not to the point where I look anything like ^^^ but I know what not to wear. Come on America become conscious of what your wearing.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Clothing Brand
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Should have read
I did this tuesday morning, at 10:30am I attend Contemporary Social Theory. Yeah that shit is boring, but the theorie are interesting. Today we spoke on Erving Goffman it has that nice ring to doesn't it. Anyway we discussed an excerpt from Asylum it shed a new light on the recidivism (people going back to prison). Goffman explains that an individual does something and get imprisoned stripped of their idenity, giving a number and a institutional tools that everyone else has making them just a number in a system. Now the person feels they have to create a sense of self in this system and sometimes that self rebels which makes the systems keep the person locked up because they started doing what the system told them not to. It works better when its about crazy people but this works too.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Life Sucks...
"When it rains, it fucking pours...."
I feel like everything I do is wrong. I just need to catch a fucking break, but I'm not good at this dodgeball game called life ... I'm always out. I don't really think my life really sucks I just think that I'm the one that sucks at life and thats why it seems so difficult.
I fuck up everything. Relationship stuff, family stuff, school stuff, financial stuff, writing(I can't really spell lol) And I fuck up in the shit that means the most to me FRIENDSHIPS.
This is one of the reasons why I have a tattoo that says forgive me in spanish on my wrist.(I will label reasons why I have this tattoo as this blog continues)
I wonder which friendship will I fuck up next?
STAY TUNE FOR MORE OF
THE ADVENTURES OF THE FRIEND REPELLER
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Stolen Meals
I woke up this morning while everyone was asleep. I made pancakes, drank a large cup of juice, and ate some apple sauce. I cleaned the dishes I dirtied so I believe my job is done. Hey why did they leave the pancake mix out if they didn't want someone else to eat it?
I enjoyed my breakfast and it was all FREE !!!