Got My Spot Back...

I'm back on the most common place in my apartment... the couch! I love the couch its comfy, I can do everything I do in my room, except the unhygienic stuff (that's just gross). I hate being alone and if im on the couch everyone says hello when they walk in and when they leave they say good bye plus I got a big window so I can open the shades and take in nature. I got the laptop out here and then I got a big ass tv what else am I missing?

How about food, a date, a drink, an L maybe....

It's werid...

I dont know what it is but the guys I think are cute or even fucking pay attention to have one of these issues:
A. Broke (I can deal with this)
B. No Job (I can deal with it if they are in school)
C. Doing nothing (SMH!!!!)
D. Is ENGAGED!!!

The last one is the one that upsets me cuz its like damn I shouldn't but the girl the guy is with isn't in the USA. It's just fun right. I'm not forcing them to say anything and I'm not going to get attached....I hope!

Back on campus

I finally came back to school @ 10am after getting kicked out. lol. I see it as a joke.

Well at least I got out of my house right now I have 5 months to find
1. a job
2. a place to live
3. stability

This trip is good though I came back with some nice things lol
This trip from home I came back with a gift for friend lol it was my cousin shes a very fun person I love hanging out with her. Throughout our friendship has been up and down for years we have been bonding lately.

Like she doesn't really know what she wants and stuff but i think she is really starting to like my friend on some sprung idk how to act around this person level. It's werid cuz she dosen't take people seriously but she really likes her. I'm happy for her but at the same time I'm not cuz of the tempers involved.
Like its cool they like each other but there is usually someone hurt or upset at the end. Hopefully this is one of the ones that the 2 parties are happy at the end....

Runaways and KickOuts

I got kicked out of my house. My parents are strict and old fashioned. I was told I was to much to handle I was lazy I had no dicipline and I just want to do whatever I want. I am 21 yrs old I don't live at home I go to school and I graduate in May!!! WTF do they want from me?

My friend ranaway from home because she didn't want to go to DR. What happened to just saying no...

Feelings At The Moment

I feel like my timing for everything sucks.
I get offended easily and I am sensitive.
I care to much about the small things.
And I am so sensitive I can't hide it I don't even try.
I feel like all my friendships get messed up because of me and the person I am. It bothers me so much that at times I think they are better off. I feel like the most important ones are driftting away slowly because of who I am and my inability to change. It sucks cuz for the first time I feel like I actually love friends and everything is changing. I think I am holding them back in some way idk its weird I am changing I have heard I am becoming unhappy cold and mean ... all this from the number one person other than myself who has made me the fucked up person I am today.

I want to be this new person but how can I if I still am the old me?

KickOuts and Runaways

So I was kicked out of my house on friday for being to much to handle, lazy, doing whatever I want and not listening to the rules. I am 21 yrs old and I go to school. I live on campus and I graduate in may wtf do they want?

My friend ranaway so she wouldn't have to go to DR. SMH just say NO...

old times...

I have an adoptive mom and she loves me...

Hscopes for 09 Are On Point SMH...

Try to visit your friends and acquaintances more often. Relax, you shouldn't want to be active all day, rather try to enjoy your time off. Try to keep account of the situation at home if you make important decisions...

You're dealing with too much stuff today and there's no easy way to back out of it. Try to just handle one thing at a time until you can either call in the cavalry or rush hone for a well-deserved rest.

And It Continues...

So the bullshit in life for me is a every two day thing this year I guess... last night a group got up and left becasue they felt uncomfortable with a group I walked in with so instead of hanging out they left which was the indicator that they felt uncomfortable. I am upset that this is what is happeneing at a place that we go to hangout and smoke at. So I am not freely going over there anymore if I get invited or picked up to go over or if others that are with me want to go then fine I will but me be the one to bring it up and show up than nah its not happening.

Monday Night TV

Well like my usual monday night I sat and watched tv but everything was going wrong! I was so unhappy.
1. I can't watch monday night TV in the comfort of my own home.
2. I went to watch at my friends house but they were so loud it was like me watching tv on mute.
3. Then after everything got calm it was an ok episode I expected more but the show is only a half an hour which is wack.

Since the show I watch is about people getting their shit together I feel like I am not going to do anything with my life... All I have is debt and nothing to do after my degree.

Am I a faliure at life... YES.

Nothing New...but bullshit

There is nothing new about my life right now but there is mad shit going on...

ADDED:
1. I am super broke and I have to come up wit 300 bucks a month for eternity smh...
2. I got a threat to get cut off by someone who is a fucking loser! How you cutting me off when I lend you money get you out of trouble and try to convince your father to help you. Then again your cutting me off ha i laugh at your stupidity go ahead...
3. Something went missing @ a close friends house and the person from comment 2 is believed to be invovled but this person has no money which if he had taken it he would have shown atleast 20 bucks. Anyway now one of the people that live there made me feel uncomfortable so now I'm not going back to her house and I feel bad about it.

Holy BATMAN!!!!!

I want these bad boys...

2 days in

and the year has had it's down falls already...

I don't even wanna talk about it Because I'm just gonna get upset.

Why must one pay for others?
Don't hold shit against me because of something someone else did...

Happy New Year!!!!!!!

Well its a New Year and so much to look forward to with the usual things to avoid.

This year my mottos and goals are...
1. Being nice never pays
2. Think about the Star Player 1st
3. Don't be nice or help anyone
4. Stay away from guys that don't know what they want
5. Graduate
6. Move on with everything
7. FUCK EVERYONE
8. Stop expecting shit from people its a set up for let downs

New Years Eve!!!!

I got nothing but time wasted in 2008
so i just wanna take a moment to remince the year...


















Ahhhh.... Good Year *Closes that book opens new one titled 2009*

I don't regret anything but I hella learned. So much was said true colors shown and now theres a new year to continue on.

The Last Couple Days....

Have been a blur I can't even remember what I did that's the effects of drugs and alcohol, it happens to the best of us.

Bromance / The City

I have fallen in love with monday night TV it's ridiculous.
I sit and watch T.V with my Bro (this is gonna be my new word for '09) Ebunny (who is in DC) and give our opinions back and forth about the show its pretty intense TV watching its a sport for us you guys are not ready.

Little Black Dress

I got the perfect dress for New Years at Karinas House to bad that only a few of my fav people will be there 2 of the most important wont I hope they have fun though its gonna be a crazy year.

Christmas

Its not a family holiday till someone gets drunk and doesn't know how to act it was my sister's year.
...and I have no buns person either I retired him. Long story I don't want speak about

I'm done

As I write this I have visted the 3rd floor lol and I have drank about 12 shots if I drink about 2 more I will puke.

My sister is a dick she upset me tonight. She came out her face in front of everyone. She told everyone that I was a lesbian and that was why I only had female friends and didnt have any boyfriend. I got so upset. That was such a low blow its not true it just hurts that someone so close did that.

I deaded the dude that i was getting buns from he was a real asshole. So I am all alone again I wonder what the others are doing. *picks up phone*